I’ve written this post several times now but can’t seem to find the right words.
On 17th August 2020 we lost our little dog, Holly.
I’ve been dreading that day for several years now because she was the grand old age of seventeen.
It doesn’t matter how you try to prepare yourself the pain is agonisingly raw.
I promised her I would be strong.
So that is what I will be!
Not many people can experience so many years with a dog and I am hugely thankful for that.
It also comforts me to know that she never experienced pain, never went to bed hungry, shivered from cold, or felt unloved.
There are thousands of dogs who sadly never had that luxury.
In Her Prime
Holly
2002 – 2020
It would have been easy to overlook Holly because she really was such a good little dog. She saw many dogs come and go, many stayed for a few weeks until they went on to forever homes. Others lived by her side for years.
Holly and Alfie were a totally bonded pair so when we lost him suddenly I didn’t think she would survive. Instead, she showed strength like I couldn’t believe and gave us all the courage to face life without him.
She took absolutely no prisoners in life, if another dog upset her she would let them know. However, she only ever acted in complete fairness and moved on as if nothing happened.
One thing is for sure, I will remember her every time I cook sausages. She knew within minutes if they were in the oven and wouldn’t leave the kitchen until she got her slice.
Mornings won’t be the same without that little body yapping at me to wake up and start the day. I’m not much of a morning person but her enthusiasm was infectious, she was just so happy to wake up and enjoy her day.
It was always a little a joke in our family that I never got to train Holly any useful commands. It wasn’t that I didn’t try, but she was adamant that dog training wasn’t for her. We did have a secret code though, she would catch my eye across the room and stick her little pink tongue out and I did the same back. Then she would wiggle her nose and I found myself doing the same. It took me a long time to realise that she was actually training me!
Considering she was such a small dog she has left a massive void in my life. Somehow home just doesn’t feel like home anymore. I keep wondering where she is all the time. I think for months my mantra has been “Where’s Holly?’. She would potter in the garden happily for hours, the rain and cold didn’t stop her ( unlike her brothers, who refuse to go out if there’s a hint of drizzle!)
She was always happy just to be close to me, usually perched on the sofa just behind my head. Recently I noticed her distancing herself from me physically. It was extremely subtle but didn’t go unnoticed. I think she was preparing me for this time when I have to continue without her, waiting for the time to be right.
This year has been so, so hard. Not just with the fear of a global pandemic but family heartbreak and my own health struggles. Holly stuck with me throughout and now she leaves me, far from alone…but scared and lonely.
Wherever she is now, I hope there are tummy tickles and sausages at the click of a paw!
Cuddle your fur babies tight. Don’t be grumpy when they get under your feet and walk mud on your kitchen floor.
Because, they’re not here forever.
This is a poem I wrote for Holly.
The Empty Chair
Not large in stature but strong and wise
With a curly tail and soulful eyes
A face that always seemed to say
‘Don’t worry, it will be okay’
A silent presence at my side
Guiding me through this bumpy ride
A reason to smile, laugh and cry
Together we watched the world go by
Throughout it all, you were always there
Soothing and guiding from the back of the chair
My mentor, my anchor, my port in a storm
My little protector, gentle and warm
Kate Hanford
My daughter bought me this really sweet keyring to remember Holly. It means that wherever I go, she goes with me, just like the old days. It’s so sentimental to me because it was bought for me by someone who knows how painful it is to lose a pet, a kind and comforting gesture.
When you lose your beloved pet, a true family member, it is so hard to cope and just move on. Here we made a little memorial keepsake to help you through the hard times.
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The Last Photo – July 2020
Every pet loss is different and everyone copes differently. We still go through the emotions of deep sadness, guilt, and even anger, just like when we lose close friends and family.
I have lost a dog suddenly, through old age, through illness, I even had a foster dog die in my arms…but they all hurt just the same.
If you are struggling with the loss of a pet, these posts may help a little.
My wife said she would never get another dog after our Boo Boo passed, my wife cried every night for months, I told her “We are dog people and we need another dog in the house” It took months put I finally convinced her that the joy far out weighs the pain. We’ve had our new dog 10 months now. We who are on this site our blessed to know the joy a pet can give.
Mercy me!! I can relate to every word you have said. When we lost our Tibetan Spaniel- his name is Woji – nothing had ever been so heartbreaking. I light a candle by his picture the moment I get up every morning. It’s been 2 yrs now. We have four Tibetan Spaniels still – I know I have further heartbreak to come – but imagine never having experienced the love and loyalty from our precious puppies. ❤️ It’s hard but the memories are engraved in our hearts 💜
It never gets easier and even if you try to prepare yourself it is still painful beyond words. All we can do is think about all the good times, the laughter and the love …and it really is worth it xx
Totally agree Karen. I can’t imagine a home without a dog, but the devastation we feel when they leave us is unbearable. It just shows how wonderful dogs are because we continue to have them as companions. All we can do is cherish all the happy memories. Take care x
I don’t know ur exact pain but definitely know it when I had to put my two down this Jan . The empty chair was beautiful and I am so very sorry for your loss and offer my sincerest sympathy for everything you wrote is true! My Sophie would always be at my head and her brother Murphy at my stomach like a spooner lol. Those two were soul mates and I am so lost without them . Having lost them right after losing my mother has been very hard time but your post brightened my day ! Thank you!!
Thank you for your comment. I was also in the process of losing my mother when Holly died so I can totally relate. Fly high Sophie and Murphy and bless you Jennifer.
We are just heartbroken for you, but what a lovely tribute to a very special little girl. Your words are beautiful and have brought tears to my eyes.
I have not yet had to face such a loss. The Fab Four are still only five years old, so we’re hoping we have many more happy years together, but I dread the day…
We’re all sending you lots of love and licks.
Thank you so much, I hope you have many, many more happy years with The Fab Four. Enjoy every single moment and give them an extra special hug today xx
So very sorry for your loss. My beloved Roofie was with us for sixteen years & now my heart is broken. I keep reminding myself that great loss comes from great love. You are in my prayers.
I’m sorry for your loss. They truly are our best friend. I know exactly how you feel, we lost our Boston Terrier in February . I think about her every day.
I lost both of my dogs this fall within a month of each other. One was 13 and died suddenly one morning with no real warning. The other one was 16 and had dementia and we had to have her put down just 4 weeks later. It has been very rough at times. People who don’t have dogs sometimes just don’t understand the grief we face as pet parents
My grandmother was pretty sick and home bound for the last 3 years of her life and I helped take care of her for a lot of that time. I think I never really grieved for her until both of my dogs passed away and then it all just got me at once. Some days it was just hard to have any motivation and even get out of bed. I am working through it, but it isn’t easy. Thanks so much for sharing about your sweet pup. Glad to know that others feel the same way that I do with this grief.
Thank you for sharing your story Angie, I’m so sorry for your huge loss. I do understand completely because I was caring for my mum when I lost Holly and they died within weeks of each other. I still have two dogs and they have got me through, but I will never find a soulmate like Holly. I hope you take comfort from how well you took care of your grandmother and also for giving your dogs long, happy lives. Take care and all the best for 2022.
Thank you so much for creating a place that gives people a chance to talk about the tremendous void in their lives and the wonderful friend(s) who made it. Mine was made by a Springer Spaniel named Candy. I’ve never had a closer relationship with anyone, human or otherwise. She was, and still is, part of my soul. No one can ever tell me that it wasn’t divine intervention that brought her into my life. I will never have children but thanks to her, I know what it’s like to literally ache with love when you look at someone. It’s been years since I had to let her go but the bond has not lessened. She’s one of the first things I’ll look for when it’s my turn to go. I am so great full the God loves me enough to have made my sweet Candy Spaniel.
Bless you, your beautiful words bought me to tears. Candy was so lucky to have you and she will be waiting at the Rainbow Bridge. Take care and thank you for sharing your story xx
I am so sorry. I lost my sweet baby girl Belle this past April. She looked very much like Holly, a Maltese, so beautiful and sweet. Always there to greet me ..always by my side ..my soft, gentle baby ..and then one day…just gone…Leaving a huge gap in my heart that can never be filled. Her brother Buddy, a pit bull, was so very distraught for some time as well and we have bonded more as a result. They say dogs don’t have feelings. The day she passed he walked by wirh his head down and afterward would literally go to her bed and cry with his head against it. We grieved together and still do and we are both a little better ..much closer..but there will never be another Belle and nothing will ever take her place in my heart. She lives on in tribute in our home and in our hearts. I pray to be reunited one day 💕
I’m so sorry for you and Buddy. I’ve fostered Maltese and know what sweet, gentle dogs they are. Buddy sounds like a very sensitive boy, I cried when I read about his pain. Poor, poor boy! You will come through this, together and stronger, but it takes time. Take care xx
Our lil’ boy Boo Boo was 11 years when he passed, He was going through some medical issues and I was thankful that we were able to provide the best possible care for him. Boo Boo passed away on his Ma ma’s lap as she dried him from his bath just before he was scheduled for a visit with the Vet. Boo Boo looked up at mom and put his head down.
I just lost my baby yesterday – we had to put her down. I was looking up grieving dog loss and your blog popped up. This looks JUST like my cinnamon. I scrolled to the bottom and there’s a picture of a black & white dog that looks JUST like my other dog Domino! Crazy!
That’s such a coincidence Amanda. The black and white dog was called Alfie. We lost him very suddenly and whilst I was grieving for him I got the inspiration to start this blog. I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending love and hugs xx
My Paige looked alot like your Alfi.. I lost Paige one week ago . She was with me for almost 12 years . Everything you said in this poem is exactly how Paige was with me . I don’t know how to be without her . Thank you for putting into words what I haven’t been able to yet .
I lost Mr. Muggles, my little Maltipoo in June. You know, I lost both parents and my beloved Grandmother that lived to be 110. The grief of all 3 of them combined (whom I loved very much) didn’t come close to the grief of my little guy. He got diabetes and was blind the last 3 years of his life. When he lost his eyesight his sense of smell kicked in. He knew where I was at all times and he was right there with me. I’ve never felt more alone in my 65 years of life. I miss him desperately. I found a beautiful urn necklace and carry his ashes with me always. The love of an animal is an absolute gift from God.
I’m so sorry to hear that you lost Mr. Muggles, he sounds like a lovely little man. I agree that the loss of a pet is a raw pain, like no other grief. Take care and sweet dreams Mr. Muggle RIP xx
I lost my Lilly last month. I got her at Animal Care and Control after hearing of her being left in a house after her owners moved out. She was 6 at the time and they told me had many health issues. I took her anyway and had the best dog for 12 years. I am still crying every day. She was her normal self up until the very last day and passed overnight in her sleep at 18. I live alone so the house has been so quiet but I am no where near ready to get another dog. My heart is so broken, it is so hard to even think about. Thanks for your beautiful words.
18 is an amazing age for a dog, no wonder you miss your sweet Lilly. You gave her a wonderful home and never let her feel pain, that’s a great achievement. You will know when the time is right to welcome another fur baby, until then, take care xx
I lost my baby Grizzly a few weeks ago to cancer. He was only 7 years old and truly the sweetest most gentle dog I’ve ever met. We had no idea he was even sick. He was perfectly normal and healthy and happy and then one day suddenly he just got this really distant look in his eyes and wouldn’t get up from the front door, so I rushed him to the emergency vet and they told us his abdomen was full of blood from a tumor that ruptured. He never even made it to his emergency surgery that night. I still feel like I’m in shock. One moment my life was perfect and the next I felt like I was the most miserable I’ve ever been in my life. I never thought anything could hurt this much. It was so traumatizing. He was my baby, and boy he knew it. I can’t think of any moments spent in my home that he wasn’t right there beside me. It feels like part of me has died with him. I just still can’t wrap my head around how it all happened so fast. I miss him so much. I wish I could go back to that night and just hold him and tell him everything is okay. I was in so much shock that night I couldn’t even think straight. I’ve been struggling so much. I found this page on Pinterest and have just cried and cried at all of the beautiful tributes to our sweet babies. May they always know how much we adore them. One thing i know for sure is that if love alone could have kept my grizzly bear alive he would have lived an eternity. Thank you for making this space. It is special. I am including you all in my prayers that we find healing and comfort through these difficult times.
I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your lovely Grizzly. At seven years old you never think about them leaving you so I understand the shock and great pain you are experiencing. Thank you for sharing your story, this page is all about supporting each other and your words will help others. Take care and try to remember all the good times xxx
nd so she stayed. Mikki knew from the start that she wanted to stay with us. She had a few more tumours that came up on her body , some benign some malignent. Oh how I loved this little one. She got sick, and started having seizures, with meds were controlled but I just watched her fade away in front of my eyes. I couldnt let her suffer any more so gave her her wings, her vet thought she could have had a brain tumour. My baby girl had fought all her life to be on this earth.
Four days later another of my foster fails Mindi was outside playing with our other dogs and our shepherd bit her on her head, just playing she wasnt out to hurt her just doesnt realise her strength. All it took was one bite and her vet couldnt save her, she passed away in my arms as did Mikki 4 days earlier. Even typing this I have tears running down my face.
Mikki and Mindi I miss you both every day and love you so much. I dont think I will ever get over this and was even going to give up fostering, it broke my heart.
I’m so sorry to hear this Bronwyn. Losing two dogs in such a short time must be unbearable. I only hope that Mikki and Mindi are together, reunited and waiting for you at Rainbow Bridge. Please, please don’t give up fostering, just take a break for now. I fostered myself and I know how hard it is, but it is so rewarding too and good foster mums are hard to find. Take care xxx
I just lost my baby 16 days ago. She was 11, I had her since she was 10 weeks old. She was not a pet, she was family. My heart is broken. I like how you mentioned how Holly became distant to prepare you. I never thought of it like that, but I think that’s what Mimi was doing. Unfortunately because I didn’t get her spayed, she ended up getting an infection in her uterus. My poor baby was so strong, but too strong because I never knew something serious like that was wrong with her. She was dying in my arms. The hardest decision I ever had to make was letting her go and putting her to sleep. I didn’t want her to be in pain. Her uterus had ruptured. I wanted her to stay alive so bad but I didn’t want her to be in pain. Every now and then, I feel like she’s here and it’s just very hard right now having to go through this. Before she took her last breath, she let out a whimper, I know she was telling me goodbye. I can’t quit thinking about that. How were you able to go forward? I’m still just so sad.
I’m so sorry Whitney, I can tell how devastated and lost you feel. There are no words to help you right now but I know that you absolutely did the right thing for Mimi and, if she could she would thank you for that. As the days pass by you will begin to remember all the good times you had together and what a good life you gave her. Try to talk to someone who has gone through something similiar and don’t be hard on yourself. Remember you were a fantastic mum to Mimi ,,she was loved and cherished and she wouldn’t want her mum to be sad. Take care
This site definitely came at a good time. The pain of losing a pet is at times, well overwhelming. I lost Shiloh who we think was at least 15 years old. My son got her at the Humane Society. We really don’t know her story but get to tell the end of her story. My son had her a few years and he had to move to another state and it would be in an apartment. That girl would have got them evicted so she came to live with my husband and I. She got to enjoy the cool summers in Minnesota and the nice winters in Arizona. She had the softest fur! I could just stick my face in her fur and remember how soft she felt. I spent that dreadful morning with my face in her fur. I had to make one of the hardest decisions of my 61 years of life. To have to make the decision to euthanize her goes beyond agonizing. It is now 5 weeks and I still see her around the corner looking for her supper and I still hear her snore. In my daily prayers, I ask God to please have her meet me when He takes me home. It somewhat helps ease the ache in my heart. I wonder what my other dog thinks happened to her?
So sorry for your loss Rebecca. I can tell how much you loved and miss Shiloh. Have you read the Rainbow Bridge poem? It says that all our dogs wait for us to join them. They are young again, happy and free of pain, it is very comforting. Take care and try to remember all the good times x
I also lost my doggy on the 3rd of Nov 2022, her name was splashy, she was a foxy cross, she was 14years old, and the best friend I ever had. We had to put her down as the doc reckoned she had internal bleeding, and we had no other choice…. my heart is broken, can’t stop thinking about her, I miss her soooooooooooooo much!!
I have been thinking of replying to this post many times. I’ve had 17 rescue dachshunds, 12 at one time. I have just lost my last one Lucy the 17th of October. I had a really hard time losing Buddy a year ago in May. I thought that was the hardest one I’ve ever lost. He never stopped looking for the other dogs. But when I had to put him down because of cancer Lucy never stopped looking for him. Now I put Lucy down and she was the last one and I’m having a real hard time after losing her to a cancerous tumor in her intestines. She had just turned 10 and was a small red-haired long hair with a little black around the edges. I rescued her 5 years ago the woman just came into my driveway and dropped her off. Lucy was a dog that like to talk and was very affectionate and did not like to be left alone. This is the first time in 40 years I did not I do not have a dog. This is a very hard time for me. I will have a rescue again but the only thing I am thinking about is they might live me. But I am making plans to go down and pick up two of them so hopefully things will work out. I had planned on picking one up so Lucy would have a companion but since she’s gone I found another one that the first one gets along well with so they would both have a companion one long hair and one short hair they are at the rescue now and I should have them before Christmas. Each time I lose a dog it gets harder and this last one was extremely tough. But the rewards of having a dog are great!
John Jilek
Oh John, I’m so sorry to hear that you lost Lucy, I know how much you loved her. I am hoping and praying that you have rehomed the two rescues, it must be so lonely for you when you have always had a house full of Dachshunds. Many years ago we had two long haired red daxies with black just on the tips of the ears, they had beautiful temprements. Now I have a short haired, black and tan rescue, he hates the cold and spends a lot of time under his blanket or inside my cardigan (whilst I am wearing it!) They are such characters. I’m hoping that next time I hear from you there will be happier news. Take care and sleep well beautiful Lucy and Buddy, reunited at Rainbow Bridge.
I will never stop missing Hannah or crying for her. I held her 14 year old body till her heart beat it’s last and mine broke. They say it’s the bravest, kindest thing to help them find the rainbow bridge but I’m not sure. Other pets have been rescued, loved and mourned, but this dog was unlike any other and I may never recover from her loss.
I’m so sorry for your loss Coleen. I’ve owned and fostered many dogs but I have only ever had one true soulmate. I miss them all but Holly was like losing part of me.. Take care and keep in touch, you are not alone here. xx
When you said she distanced herself physically it really hit me. That’s what my Nico did. I lost him 4 months ago and just today I looked for him at my feet while I was carrying something. I have never felt this before and I appreciate someone making it less odd.
Thank you for sharing your story and for the beautiful poem. I just lost my beautiful fur baby on December 28th. I was honored to be her mommy for 15 years. I’ve had her since she was practically in her mommy’s tummy. I am currently waiting for her ashes at the moment. It’s been so hard for our family dealing with the loss. I know it’s a process that only time can heal. I also know that I would not change anything because she brought so much joy into our lives.
So sorry about your little Holly. Her best friend could be my little Cookie. I lost her July 21, 2022. She missed her 16th birthday by 2 months. I miss her terribly, still look for her and can even smell her. She was my friend, my confidant and my angel. So sweet, so kind and always loving. She left a huge hole in my heart, but I do know where she is. Several days after her passing I was in the kitchen preparing our dinner and the thought came over me that I should be making her dinner and feeding her, I looked around for her and then the Lord spoke to me, He said “who better than I to care for your baby”. From that point I knew she was ok, I still miss her but I know for sure she’s OK and being taken care of!!
I’m so sorry for your loss. I came across your post just days after losing my little Oreo. We were so lucky to have him for 12 years. The grief and sorrow I feel seems unbearable. As his health began to decline I dreaded that he’d be alone when it was his time. Thankfully, we were able to surround him with love when he finally left us. This was our only pet so we’re still navigating through this pain. Thank you for sharing your beautiful poem and your picture of Holly. The most amazing thing is that the doggie next to her is the spitting image of my dear Oreo. That made me smile through the tears. Thank you for sharing Holly’s story with us.
I am so sorry for the loss of your Holly. I lost my miniature schnauzer, Jax, January 23rd of this year. I got him when he was a 7 week old puppy and he was the sweetest dog I have ever known. 10 1/2 years was just not long enough. I miss him so much!! Making the decision to put him down was one of the hardest things I have ever done, but he was in pain and I couldn’t watch him suffer any more. My heart breaks all over again every time I think of him.
You did the kindest thing for Jax. It might not feel like it right now but to end his suffering was so brave and if he could he would thank you. RIP beautiful boy xx
I have cried reading every tribute. I lost my Lhasa Mia after 15 yrs but she was poisoned. I tried to keep her going as her kidneys were damaged and she started to rally and eat again. It was like a miracle. But the horrible person who poisoned her did it again when I left her for a short time. The second time there was no saving her. I held her face as she slipped away in the vets office and I honestly don’t know how I got home. That was a year and a half ago and I still cry most days. She spent every night except two in my bed and not having her back to back with me is unbearable. That’s where she slept every night since she was eight weeks old. I am fortunate that she had one litter of babies and I still have one of her daughters who is now herself 15. Just as fit and still running round the park as her mummy did until she was poisoned. Her name is Daisy and she has moved up the bed but still not moving into Mia’s space. I know she missed her because she cried at bed time every night for the first six months. I don’t know what hurt most, the loss of my sweet girl or her baby crying for her. I know they have to go at some time but even the vet couldn’t believe she was 15. It was not her time to go. Any way my love and prayers to everyone grieving their babies and thankyou for the space to pay them tribute. They truly are one of the most precious gifts God has given the human race and will always be the greatest love of my life!
Oh Jill, what a sad, sad story. We all prepare to lose our fur babies as they get older. However, losing Mia to poisoning is unbearable for you. Like you say, it was not her time yet. At least you have Daisy and you can share your grief together. Mia must have been so special to be missed so much.. Lhasa’s are incredible little characters and I totally understand that she has left a huge void. Take care and give Daisy a gentle hug from me xx
I just lost my Yorkie Baxter 2 weeks ago. He had lymphatic cancer. He was never in pain. Towards the end I started bathing him myself. His tough little body became lighter and fragile. By that weekend I knew he was not going to be around much longer. I’d rock him and whisper that he didn’t need to stay. That it was ok to leave me. That mommy understood and he could wait for me at the bridge and go play and I would be sure he knew when I got there. I put him down for the nite. I found him the next morning. It was so surreal. But I knew and I felt guilty that I couldn’t stop what what was about to happen. I wrapped his body up because I had decided to have him buried at my daughter’s church. I gathered his extra food and treats to give to the food bank because the homeless have pets too. I put three of his favorite toys to be with him. Everything else is in a box. His life is in a box. He was my goodest dog. He took me through moves, a divorce and other life experiences….good and bad. I keep thinking I see the top of his head near the bottom of my chair. He would sleep at my side at night. My first dog I got for Christmas when I was 7. There have been a few after. All loved, all missed. It never gets easier.
Oh dear, I’m in floods of tears here. What a beautiful story Jacqueline. Baxter sounds very special and I’m sure he will be so missed. You are right, it doesn’t get easier, but we will see each other again at the bridge. Take care and sleep well Baxter xx
I’m sorry for your pain of sorrow. I had my 17 year old Yorkie die in my arms last month and still expect the habitual habits that I loved so much to embrace my heart. But are only memories now and my tears of my little 4 pound boy Spike still fall. He was my world and is in the arm of Jesus.
So sorry for your loss its so hard I just had to put my boy down an hour ago and like you he was my everything since he was a baby 8weeks old my heart is broken and the house is empty but I know he is pain free and that’s what matters to me I know a piece of my heart is gone forever I truly miss him I hope your pain eases and remember the beautiful memories god blesd
My daughter just suddenly lost her little Morkie named Wally. He was only 4 and was hit by a car. She is devastated. Wally was the sweetest little guy with a big personality. He loved everyone and brought smiles to all he met. Life seems so strange but guess Heaven needed his endless joy more. We know time will help but the sadness is so deep and I think it’s because a pet gives us unconditional love and really asks for nothing in return. These posts were very comforting to read
So sorry to hear about the loss of Wally. It’s always devastating but a sudden death at such a young age is beyond comprehension. Sending huge hugs to you Carrie and your daughter, Fly high little one xx
I came across your poem today. I had to put down my best friend, Dudley, yesterday. I too had him before I was married and he was so bonded to me it was almost a joke at our house. He was always by my side. Whatever room I was in he followed me to. I held him like a baby a lot of the time and he would just cuddle into my neck. I can’t imagine ever having another dog that I am that bonded too. Hopefully someday our family can get another dog or 2 but my heart is so broken I don’t know if I can ever bear this pain again. Thank you for the poem. It helps me know that others understand this pain too. Much love to you. Someday I hope we can be reunited with our forever companions ❤️
So sorry to hear your sad news Rachel. Some dogs bond with us so much, it feels like they can see into your soul. This pain you are feeling is raw and heartbreaking but I strongly believe you WILL meet with Dudley again. Take care and remember you are not alone. Fly high beautiful Dudley x
I can relate so much, mine was my Megaman, my 4 pound Maltese, who was with me , when my children became adults and left home, through my 5 months of healing after my cancer surgery, and everything else in between, for 16 years ….my heart and soul are broken💔
I totally understand. Holly was with me through some tough times, like a little shadow. Also, having fostered Maltese in the past, I know how incredibly loving and loyal they are. I’m sending healing thoughts and prayers to you, be strong for your fur baby and take care x
My sweet Chloe crossed the bridge on July 31, 2023. I am so sad. I’m okay with being sad and sometimes tearful. I haven’t had the emotional fortitude to pack up her lovies and all the things I used to keep her fluffy and well. She came into my life with a lick and a wiggle and was the joy of my days for sixteen years. I held her as she left me and my heart broke. I think I will always feel the space she left there. I always thought the saying “with great love comes great pain” was just a platitude people said when they didn’t know what to say but I realize now just how profound those words really are.
So sorry Dinah, I can tell how much pain you are feeling. You will know when it’s time to pack away Chloe’s things, there are no rules with grief, just give yourself time. If she could, Chloe would thank you for being such a wonderful mum and now it’s time to take care of yourself. Sending healing thoughts x
I recently lost my baby Elsa last Thursday and I feel like a part of me died I cry multiple times a day I miss her so much she was my sunshine .it sucks how hard it is no one tells you how hard it will be when u lose a pet Elsa was my best friend my partner in crime.I still look for her in the morning and when I come home.I hope she knows how much she’s missed and how much I wish I can turn back time and get one more snuggle in …jessica
So sorry for your loss Jessica. Elsa sounded like such a sweetie, no wonder you are devastated. It really is early days and the grief is raw at this time. Elsa does know how much you miss her and she wouldn’t want you to be sad. Take care and RIP Elsa x
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know the pain you went through. I had a 14 year old Siberian Husky, Nikita “Niki”, who passed away in 2015 of old age. He was the most docile and sweetest dog that I owned. My husband and I got him he was a tiny pup at 8 weeks old. He helped raise 3 amazing boys. Allowed them to climb all over him, stick their little fingers up his nose, tug on his ears and tail and he never once turned to nip at them. He loved the cold weather here in Northern Illinois, especially when it snowed, we couldn’t get him inside for hours. He was a blessing and so lovable to everyone that crossed his path. When he crossed the rainbow bridge, I was devastated and said I’ll never get another dog because Niki left the biggest paw print and hole in my heart. Everyday after he passed I felt him lying on my feet, they were awfully toasty plus Nikki loved lying on them. I also felt his hot breathe on my arm when I sat on the couch. The boys and my husband said we need a dog in the house, I refused for 3 years until I said yes. Then we found our sweet Kaiser who was a 14 week old German Shepherd/Labrador Retriever. Kaiser slowly meted my heart when we saw him at the shelter. He mended my heart around the paw print that Niki left. Kaiser was taken from us too early and too young. In March of 2021, he was diagnosed with lymphoma. We were told that he could be with us for 2 weeks to 2 months. My second oldest son said to me that we should get another dog to be there when Kaiser passes for our emotional support. We pitched it to my husband and he agreed. So while we were taking care of Kaiser and keeping him as comfortable as possible with the cancer we started looking for another dog. Within the month, we adopted a 1.5 year old Great Pyrenees, named Gimli. When we brought him home he and Kaiser bonded well and became best friends. Gimli would lay beside Kaiser until he fell asleep every night. About 16 weeks after Kaiser’s diagnosis he passed away at home in my arms under his favorite tree in the front yard. He was surrounded by everyone who loved him(family, Gimli, and neighbors). To this day I think of both dogs constantly and shed tears as well. Gimli comes over and comforts me. I as well carry both Niki and Kaiser with me everyday through the memorial I’ve had tattooed on my wrist. It says “Forever in my Heart” with two small paw prints, one blue for Niki (he had those blue eyes) and a black one long side of the blue one for Kaiser.
It sounds like you have been on such an emotional journey with your dogs Jennifer. I have an age gap between my dogs because I couldn’t bear to come home to an empty house. My rescue Dachshund is getting older now, his muzzle is getting more grey by the day. I still miss Holly, she was an angel and my soulmate, but I know we’ll meet again one day. Big hugs to Gimli (I’ve never met a Great Pyrenees, but would love to) and thank you so much for sharing your story x
So sorry for your loss…anyone who has ever had a pet can truly empathize with the pain you are now feeling.
Thank you, it’s hard right now but I wouldn’t change anything xx
My wife said she would never get another dog after our Boo Boo passed, my wife cried every night for months, I told her “We are dog people and we need another dog in the house” It took months put I finally convinced her that the joy far out weighs the pain. We’ve had our new dog 10 months now. We who are on this site our blessed to know the joy a pet can give.
I am so pleased to hear this Ken,
Mercy me!! I can relate to every word you have said. When we lost our Tibetan Spaniel- his name is Woji – nothing had ever been so heartbreaking. I light a candle by his picture the moment I get up every morning. It’s been 2 yrs now. We have four Tibetan Spaniels still – I know I have further heartbreak to come – but imagine never having experienced the love and loyalty from our precious puppies. ❤️ It’s hard but the memories are engraved in our hearts 💜
It never gets easier and even if you try to prepare yourself it is still painful beyond words. All we can do is think about all the good times, the laughter and the love …and it really is worth it xx
Totally agree Karen. I can’t imagine a home without a dog, but the devastation we feel when they leave us is unbearable. It just shows how wonderful dogs are because we continue to have them as companions. All we can do is cherish all the happy memories. Take care x
I don’t know ur exact pain but definitely know it when I had to put my two down this Jan . The empty chair was beautiful and I am so very sorry for your loss and offer my sincerest sympathy for everything you wrote is true! My Sophie would always be at my head and her brother Murphy at my stomach like a spooner lol. Those two were soul mates and I am so lost without them . Having lost them right after losing my mother has been very hard time but your post brightened my day ! Thank you!!
Thank you for your comment. I was also in the process of losing my mother when Holly died so I can totally relate. Fly high Sophie and Murphy and bless you Jennifer.
Iam truly dreading the day I have to part with my little Roscoe he is definitely my world I just don’t know how I will go on with out him
Just enjoy every minute with little Roscoe and take care xx
I’m so sorry for your loss. Our fur babies really do become our children. The loss is great. Love and prayers sent your way. <3 <3
Thank you for your kindness Penny, it really means a lot xx
Sending you love! We lost our dog this year too. 💗💗💗💗💗
It’s so hard isn’t it? Sending hugs and thank you for the lovely comment xxx
I’m so sorry for you loss of holly, and your tribute was beautiful
Thank you so much xxx
We are just heartbroken for you, but what a lovely tribute to a very special little girl. Your words are beautiful and have brought tears to my eyes.
I have not yet had to face such a loss. The Fab Four are still only five years old, so we’re hoping we have many more happy years together, but I dread the day…
We’re all sending you lots of love and licks.
Thank you so much, I hope you have many, many more happy years with The Fab Four. Enjoy every single moment and give them an extra special hug today xx
Thank you so much. They are hugged and loved and are sending you love and licks. xx
Just what i needed! Tell them Thank You xx
So very sorry for your loss. My beloved Roofie was with us for sixteen years & now my heart is broken. I keep reminding myself that great loss comes from great love. You are in my prayers.
Thank you so much Catherine and so sorry for your loss. Sweet dreams Roofie xx
I’m sorry for your loss. They truly are our best friend. I know exactly how you feel, we lost our Boston Terrier in February . I think about her every day.
Thank you for your kind words Linda x
I lost my beautiful 15 yr old cocker Dylan a year ago. He was a clever empathetic old man and life is just not the same without him.
So sorry for your loss Betty, fly high Dylan your mummy misses you xx
Thank you!
I lost both of my dogs this fall within a month of each other. One was 13 and died suddenly one morning with no real warning. The other one was 16 and had dementia and we had to have her put down just 4 weeks later. It has been very rough at times. People who don’t have dogs sometimes just don’t understand the grief we face as pet parents
My grandmother was pretty sick and home bound for the last 3 years of her life and I helped take care of her for a lot of that time. I think I never really grieved for her until both of my dogs passed away and then it all just got me at once. Some days it was just hard to have any motivation and even get out of bed. I am working through it, but it isn’t easy. Thanks so much for sharing about your sweet pup. Glad to know that others feel the same way that I do with this grief.
Thank you for sharing your story Angie, I’m so sorry for your huge loss. I do understand completely because I was caring for my mum when I lost Holly and they died within weeks of each other. I still have two dogs and they have got me through, but I will never find a soulmate like Holly. I hope you take comfort from how well you took care of your grandmother and also for giving your dogs long, happy lives. Take care and all the best for 2022.
Thank you so much for creating a place that gives people a chance to talk about the tremendous void in their lives and the wonderful friend(s) who made it. Mine was made by a Springer Spaniel named Candy. I’ve never had a closer relationship with anyone, human or otherwise. She was, and still is, part of my soul. No one can ever tell me that it wasn’t divine intervention that brought her into my life. I will never have children but thanks to her, I know what it’s like to literally ache with love when you look at someone. It’s been years since I had to let her go but the bond has not lessened. She’s one of the first things I’ll look for when it’s my turn to go. I am so great full the God loves me enough to have made my sweet Candy Spaniel.
Bless you, your beautiful words bought me to tears. Candy was so lucky to have you and she will be waiting at the Rainbow Bridge. Take care and thank you for sharing your story xx
I am so sorry. I lost my sweet baby girl Belle this past April. She looked very much like Holly, a Maltese, so beautiful and sweet. Always there to greet me ..always by my side ..my soft, gentle baby ..and then one day…just gone…Leaving a huge gap in my heart that can never be filled. Her brother Buddy, a pit bull, was so very distraught for some time as well and we have bonded more as a result. They say dogs don’t have feelings. The day she passed he walked by wirh his head down and afterward would literally go to her bed and cry with his head against it. We grieved together and still do and we are both a little better ..much closer..but there will never be another Belle and nothing will ever take her place in my heart. She lives on in tribute in our home and in our hearts. I pray to be reunited one day 💕
I’m so sorry for you and Buddy. I’ve fostered Maltese and know what sweet, gentle dogs they are. Buddy sounds like a very sensitive boy, I cried when I read about his pain. Poor, poor boy! You will come through this, together and stronger, but it takes time. Take care xx
I lost my heart, my best friend my ‘little man’ on Friday. I still can’t breath. R.I.P. Willy 🐾
So sorry to hear this, sending a big hug, fly high Willy your mummy loved you so much xxx
Our lil’ boy Boo Boo was 11 years when he passed, He was going through some medical issues and I was thankful that we were able to provide the best possible care for him. Boo Boo passed away on his Ma ma’s lap as she dried him from his bath just before he was scheduled for a visit with the Vet. Boo Boo looked up at mom and put his head down.
That’s so sad Ken, but how comforting for him to pass looking into the eyes of his Mama. Sweet dreams Boo Boo x
I just lost my baby yesterday – we had to put her down. I was looking up grieving dog loss and your blog popped up. This looks JUST like my cinnamon. I scrolled to the bottom and there’s a picture of a black & white dog that looks JUST like my other dog Domino! Crazy!
That’s such a coincidence Amanda. The black and white dog was called Alfie. We lost him very suddenly and whilst I was grieving for him I got the inspiration to start this blog. I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending love and hugs xx
My Paige looked alot like your Alfi.. I lost Paige one week ago . She was with me for almost 12 years . Everything you said in this poem is exactly how Paige was with me . I don’t know how to be without her . Thank you for putting into words what I haven’t been able to yet .
Oh bless you Brandy, I know how much it hurts. Sleep well Paige RIP beautiful girl xx
I lost Mr. Muggles, my little Maltipoo in June. You know, I lost both parents and my beloved Grandmother that lived to be 110. The grief of all 3 of them combined (whom I loved very much) didn’t come close to the grief of my little guy. He got diabetes and was blind the last 3 years of his life. When he lost his eyesight his sense of smell kicked in. He knew where I was at all times and he was right there with me. I’ve never felt more alone in my 65 years of life. I miss him desperately. I found a beautiful urn necklace and carry his ashes with me always. The love of an animal is an absolute gift from God.
I’m so sorry to hear that you lost Mr. Muggles, he sounds like a lovely little man. I agree that the loss of a pet is a raw pain, like no other grief. Take care and sweet dreams Mr. Muggle RIP xx
I lost my Lilly last month. I got her at Animal Care and Control after hearing of her being left in a house after her owners moved out. She was 6 at the time and they told me had many health issues. I took her anyway and had the best dog for 12 years. I am still crying every day. She was her normal self up until the very last day and passed overnight in her sleep at 18. I live alone so the house has been so quiet but I am no where near ready to get another dog. My heart is so broken, it is so hard to even think about. Thanks for your beautiful words.
18 is an amazing age for a dog, no wonder you miss your sweet Lilly. You gave her a wonderful home and never let her feel pain, that’s a great achievement. You will know when the time is right to welcome another fur baby, until then, take care xx
I lost my baby Grizzly a few weeks ago to cancer. He was only 7 years old and truly the sweetest most gentle dog I’ve ever met. We had no idea he was even sick. He was perfectly normal and healthy and happy and then one day suddenly he just got this really distant look in his eyes and wouldn’t get up from the front door, so I rushed him to the emergency vet and they told us his abdomen was full of blood from a tumor that ruptured. He never even made it to his emergency surgery that night. I still feel like I’m in shock. One moment my life was perfect and the next I felt like I was the most miserable I’ve ever been in my life. I never thought anything could hurt this much. It was so traumatizing. He was my baby, and boy he knew it. I can’t think of any moments spent in my home that he wasn’t right there beside me. It feels like part of me has died with him. I just still can’t wrap my head around how it all happened so fast. I miss him so much. I wish I could go back to that night and just hold him and tell him everything is okay. I was in so much shock that night I couldn’t even think straight. I’ve been struggling so much. I found this page on Pinterest and have just cried and cried at all of the beautiful tributes to our sweet babies. May they always know how much we adore them. One thing i know for sure is that if love alone could have kept my grizzly bear alive he would have lived an eternity. Thank you for making this space. It is special. I am including you all in my prayers that we find healing and comfort through these difficult times.
I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your lovely Grizzly. At seven years old you never think about them leaving you so I understand the shock and great pain you are experiencing. Thank you for sharing your story, this page is all about supporting each other and your words will help others. Take care and try to remember all the good times xxx
nd so she stayed. Mikki knew from the start that she wanted to stay with us. She had a few more tumours that came up on her body , some benign some malignent. Oh how I loved this little one. She got sick, and started having seizures, with meds were controlled but I just watched her fade away in front of my eyes. I couldnt let her suffer any more so gave her her wings, her vet thought she could have had a brain tumour. My baby girl had fought all her life to be on this earth.
Four days later another of my foster fails Mindi was outside playing with our other dogs and our shepherd bit her on her head, just playing she wasnt out to hurt her just doesnt realise her strength. All it took was one bite and her vet couldnt save her, she passed away in my arms as did Mikki 4 days earlier. Even typing this I have tears running down my face.
Mikki and Mindi I miss you both every day and love you so much. I dont think I will ever get over this and was even going to give up fostering, it broke my heart.
I’m so sorry to hear this Bronwyn. Losing two dogs in such a short time must be unbearable. I only hope that Mikki and Mindi are together, reunited and waiting for you at Rainbow Bridge. Please, please don’t give up fostering, just take a break for now. I fostered myself and I know how hard it is, but it is so rewarding too and good foster mums are hard to find. Take care xxx
I just lost my baby 16 days ago. She was 11, I had her since she was 10 weeks old. She was not a pet, she was family. My heart is broken. I like how you mentioned how Holly became distant to prepare you. I never thought of it like that, but I think that’s what Mimi was doing. Unfortunately because I didn’t get her spayed, she ended up getting an infection in her uterus. My poor baby was so strong, but too strong because I never knew something serious like that was wrong with her. She was dying in my arms. The hardest decision I ever had to make was letting her go and putting her to sleep. I didn’t want her to be in pain. Her uterus had ruptured. I wanted her to stay alive so bad but I didn’t want her to be in pain. Every now and then, I feel like she’s here and it’s just very hard right now having to go through this. Before she took her last breath, she let out a whimper, I know she was telling me goodbye. I can’t quit thinking about that. How were you able to go forward? I’m still just so sad.
I’m so sorry Whitney, I can tell how devastated and lost you feel. There are no words to help you right now but I know that you absolutely did the right thing for Mimi and, if she could she would thank you for that. As the days pass by you will begin to remember all the good times you had together and what a good life you gave her. Try to talk to someone who has gone through something similiar and don’t be hard on yourself. Remember you were a fantastic mum to Mimi ,,she was loved and cherished and she wouldn’t want her mum to be sad. Take care
This site definitely came at a good time. The pain of losing a pet is at times, well overwhelming. I lost Shiloh who we think was at least 15 years old. My son got her at the Humane Society. We really don’t know her story but get to tell the end of her story. My son had her a few years and he had to move to another state and it would be in an apartment. That girl would have got them evicted so she came to live with my husband and I. She got to enjoy the cool summers in Minnesota and the nice winters in Arizona. She had the softest fur! I could just stick my face in her fur and remember how soft she felt. I spent that dreadful morning with my face in her fur. I had to make one of the hardest decisions of my 61 years of life. To have to make the decision to euthanize her goes beyond agonizing. It is now 5 weeks and I still see her around the corner looking for her supper and I still hear her snore. In my daily prayers, I ask God to please have her meet me when He takes me home. It somewhat helps ease the ache in my heart. I wonder what my other dog thinks happened to her?
So sorry for your loss Rebecca. I can tell how much you loved and miss Shiloh. Have you read the Rainbow Bridge poem? It says that all our dogs wait for us to join them. They are young again, happy and free of pain, it is very comforting. Take care and try to remember all the good times x
I also lost my doggy on the 3rd of Nov 2022, her name was splashy, she was a foxy cross, she was 14years old, and the best friend I ever had. We had to put her down as the doc reckoned she had internal bleeding, and we had no other choice…. my heart is broken, can’t stop thinking about her, I miss her soooooooooooooo much!!
So sorry for your loss, Run free Splashy and take care Genevieve. xx
I have been thinking of replying to this post many times. I’ve had 17 rescue dachshunds, 12 at one time. I have just lost my last one Lucy the 17th of October. I had a really hard time losing Buddy a year ago in May. I thought that was the hardest one I’ve ever lost. He never stopped looking for the other dogs. But when I had to put him down because of cancer Lucy never stopped looking for him. Now I put Lucy down and she was the last one and I’m having a real hard time after losing her to a cancerous tumor in her intestines. She had just turned 10 and was a small red-haired long hair with a little black around the edges. I rescued her 5 years ago the woman just came into my driveway and dropped her off. Lucy was a dog that like to talk and was very affectionate and did not like to be left alone. This is the first time in 40 years I did not I do not have a dog. This is a very hard time for me. I will have a rescue again but the only thing I am thinking about is they might live me. But I am making plans to go down and pick up two of them so hopefully things will work out. I had planned on picking one up so Lucy would have a companion but since she’s gone I found another one that the first one gets along well with so they would both have a companion one long hair and one short hair they are at the rescue now and I should have them before Christmas. Each time I lose a dog it gets harder and this last one was extremely tough. But the rewards of having a dog are great!
John Jilek
Oh John, I’m so sorry to hear that you lost Lucy, I know how much you loved her. I am hoping and praying that you have rehomed the two rescues, it must be so lonely for you when you have always had a house full of Dachshunds. Many years ago we had two long haired red daxies with black just on the tips of the ears, they had beautiful temprements. Now I have a short haired, black and tan rescue, he hates the cold and spends a lot of time under his blanket or inside my cardigan (whilst I am wearing it!) They are such characters. I’m hoping that next time I hear from you there will be happier news. Take care and sleep well beautiful Lucy and Buddy, reunited at Rainbow Bridge.
I will never stop missing Hannah or crying for her. I held her 14 year old body till her heart beat it’s last and mine broke. They say it’s the bravest, kindest thing to help them find the rainbow bridge but I’m not sure. Other pets have been rescued, loved and mourned, but this dog was unlike any other and I may never recover from her loss.
I’m so sorry for your loss Coleen. I’ve owned and fostered many dogs but I have only ever had one true soulmate. I miss them all but Holly was like losing part of me.. Take care and keep in touch, you are not alone here. xx
When you said she distanced herself physically it really hit me. That’s what my Nico did. I lost him 4 months ago and just today I looked for him at my feet while I was carrying something. I have never felt this before and I appreciate someone making it less odd.
I’m sure that they distance themselves to spare us the pain of losing them.. Fly high Nico and take care Christina xx
Thank you for sharing your story and for the beautiful poem. I just lost my beautiful fur baby on December 28th. I was honored to be her mommy for 15 years. I’ve had her since she was practically in her mommy’s tummy. I am currently waiting for her ashes at the moment. It’s been so hard for our family dealing with the loss. I know it’s a process that only time can heal. I also know that I would not change anything because she brought so much joy into our lives.
It’s a real testimony to dogs. We experience such devastation when they leave us, yet still say we wouldn’t change anything. Sending hugs Mai x
So sorry about your little Holly. Her best friend could be my little Cookie. I lost her July 21, 2022. She missed her 16th birthday by 2 months. I miss her terribly, still look for her and can even smell her. She was my friend, my confidant and my angel. So sweet, so kind and always loving. She left a huge hole in my heart, but I do know where she is. Several days after her passing I was in the kitchen preparing our dinner and the thought came over me that I should be making her dinner and feeding her, I looked around for her and then the Lord spoke to me, He said “who better than I to care for your baby”. From that point I knew she was ok, I still miss her but I know for sure she’s OK and being taken care of!!
What a comforting thought Sandra, it bought tears to my eyes. Fly high little Cookie, you are much loved xxx
I’m so sorry for your loss. I came across your post just days after losing my little Oreo. We were so lucky to have him for 12 years. The grief and sorrow I feel seems unbearable. As his health began to decline I dreaded that he’d be alone when it was his time. Thankfully, we were able to surround him with love when he finally left us. This was our only pet so we’re still navigating through this pain. Thank you for sharing your beautiful poem and your picture of Holly. The most amazing thing is that the doggie next to her is the spitting image of my dear Oreo. That made me smile through the tears. Thank you for sharing Holly’s story with us.
Thank you for your kind words Marcy. So sorry to hear about your loss of dear little Oreo. Take care xx
Thank you for sharing this.
We lost our Holly on Wednesday who was the spitting image of your gorgeous girl.
My whole world feels broken and I don’t care about anything, I just want my baby back.
They say that time’s a healer and I pray that it is. Time will tell.
So sorry to hear this Sarah. Take care of yourself and try to think about all the good times you shared. Sweet dreams beautiful Holly xx
I am so sorry for the loss of your Holly. I lost my miniature schnauzer, Jax, January 23rd of this year. I got him when he was a 7 week old puppy and he was the sweetest dog I have ever known. 10 1/2 years was just not long enough. I miss him so much!! Making the decision to put him down was one of the hardest things I have ever done, but he was in pain and I couldn’t watch him suffer any more. My heart breaks all over again every time I think of him.
You did the kindest thing for Jax. It might not feel like it right now but to end his suffering was so brave and if he could he would thank you. RIP beautiful boy xx
I have cried reading every tribute. I lost my Lhasa Mia after 15 yrs but she was poisoned. I tried to keep her going as her kidneys were damaged and she started to rally and eat again. It was like a miracle. But the horrible person who poisoned her did it again when I left her for a short time. The second time there was no saving her. I held her face as she slipped away in the vets office and I honestly don’t know how I got home. That was a year and a half ago and I still cry most days. She spent every night except two in my bed and not having her back to back with me is unbearable. That’s where she slept every night since she was eight weeks old. I am fortunate that she had one litter of babies and I still have one of her daughters who is now herself 15. Just as fit and still running round the park as her mummy did until she was poisoned. Her name is Daisy and she has moved up the bed but still not moving into Mia’s space. I know she missed her because she cried at bed time every night for the first six months. I don’t know what hurt most, the loss of my sweet girl or her baby crying for her. I know they have to go at some time but even the vet couldn’t believe she was 15. It was not her time to go. Any way my love and prayers to everyone grieving their babies and thankyou for the space to pay them tribute. They truly are one of the most precious gifts God has given the human race and will always be the greatest love of my life!
Oh Jill, what a sad, sad story. We all prepare to lose our fur babies as they get older. However, losing Mia to poisoning is unbearable for you. Like you say, it was not her time yet. At least you have Daisy and you can share your grief together. Mia must have been so special to be missed so much.. Lhasa’s are incredible little characters and I totally understand that she has left a huge void. Take care and give Daisy a gentle hug from me xx
I just lost my Yorkie Baxter 2 weeks ago. He had lymphatic cancer. He was never in pain. Towards the end I started bathing him myself. His tough little body became lighter and fragile. By that weekend I knew he was not going to be around much longer. I’d rock him and whisper that he didn’t need to stay. That it was ok to leave me. That mommy understood and he could wait for me at the bridge and go play and I would be sure he knew when I got there. I put him down for the nite. I found him the next morning. It was so surreal. But I knew and I felt guilty that I couldn’t stop what what was about to happen. I wrapped his body up because I had decided to have him buried at my daughter’s church. I gathered his extra food and treats to give to the food bank because the homeless have pets too. I put three of his favorite toys to be with him. Everything else is in a box. His life is in a box. He was my goodest dog. He took me through moves, a divorce and other life experiences….good and bad. I keep thinking I see the top of his head near the bottom of my chair. He would sleep at my side at night. My first dog I got for Christmas when I was 7. There have been a few after. All loved, all missed. It never gets easier.
Oh dear, I’m in floods of tears here. What a beautiful story Jacqueline. Baxter sounds very special and I’m sure he will be so missed. You are right, it doesn’t get easier, but we will see each other again at the bridge. Take care and sleep well Baxter xx
I’m sorry for your pain of sorrow. I had my 17 year old Yorkie die in my arms last month and still expect the habitual habits that I loved so much to embrace my heart. But are only memories now and my tears of my little 4 pound boy Spike still fall. He was my world and is in the arm of Jesus.
So sorry for your loss. Take care, I know how hard it is. RIP Spike, you are much missed x
So sorry for your loss its so hard I just had to put my boy down an hour ago and like you he was my everything since he was a baby 8weeks old my heart is broken and the house is empty but I know he is pain free and that’s what matters to me I know a piece of my heart is gone forever I truly miss him I hope your pain eases and remember the beautiful memories god blesd
My heart goes out to you. The pain is so raw. Take care, and may your gorgeous boy run free xx
My daughter just suddenly lost her little Morkie named Wally. He was only 4 and was hit by a car. She is devastated. Wally was the sweetest little guy with a big personality. He loved everyone and brought smiles to all he met. Life seems so strange but guess Heaven needed his endless joy more. We know time will help but the sadness is so deep and I think it’s because a pet gives us unconditional love and really asks for nothing in return. These posts were very comforting to read
So sorry to hear about the loss of Wally. It’s always devastating but a sudden death at such a young age is beyond comprehension. Sending huge hugs to you Carrie and your daughter, Fly high little one xx
I came across your poem today. I had to put down my best friend, Dudley, yesterday. I too had him before I was married and he was so bonded to me it was almost a joke at our house. He was always by my side. Whatever room I was in he followed me to. I held him like a baby a lot of the time and he would just cuddle into my neck. I can’t imagine ever having another dog that I am that bonded too. Hopefully someday our family can get another dog or 2 but my heart is so broken I don’t know if I can ever bear this pain again. Thank you for the poem. It helps me know that others understand this pain too. Much love to you. Someday I hope we can be reunited with our forever companions ❤️
So sorry to hear your sad news Rachel. Some dogs bond with us so much, it feels like they can see into your soul. This pain you are feeling is raw and heartbreaking but I strongly believe you WILL meet with Dudley again. Take care and remember you are not alone. Fly high beautiful Dudley x
I can relate so much, mine was my Megaman, my 4 pound Maltese, who was with me , when my children became adults and left home, through my 5 months of healing after my cancer surgery, and everything else in between, for 16 years ….my heart and soul are broken💔
I totally understand. Holly was with me through some tough times, like a little shadow. Also, having fostered Maltese in the past, I know how incredibly loving and loyal they are. I’m sending healing thoughts and prayers to you, be strong for your fur baby and take care x
My sweet Chloe crossed the bridge on July 31, 2023. I am so sad. I’m okay with being sad and sometimes tearful. I haven’t had the emotional fortitude to pack up her lovies and all the things I used to keep her fluffy and well. She came into my life with a lick and a wiggle and was the joy of my days for sixteen years. I held her as she left me and my heart broke. I think I will always feel the space she left there. I always thought the saying “with great love comes great pain” was just a platitude people said when they didn’t know what to say but I realize now just how profound those words really are.
So sorry Dinah, I can tell how much pain you are feeling. You will know when it’s time to pack away Chloe’s things, there are no rules with grief, just give yourself time. If she could, Chloe would thank you for being such a wonderful mum and now it’s time to take care of yourself. Sending healing thoughts x
I recently lost my baby Elsa last Thursday and I feel like a part of me died I cry multiple times a day I miss her so much she was my sunshine .it sucks how hard it is no one tells you how hard it will be when u lose a pet Elsa was my best friend my partner in crime.I still look for her in the morning and when I come home.I hope she knows how much she’s missed and how much I wish I can turn back time and get one more snuggle in …jessica
So sorry for your loss Jessica. Elsa sounded like such a sweetie, no wonder you are devastated. It really is early days and the grief is raw at this time. Elsa does know how much you miss her and she wouldn’t want you to be sad. Take care and RIP Elsa x
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know the pain you went through. I had a 14 year old Siberian Husky, Nikita “Niki”, who passed away in 2015 of old age. He was the most docile and sweetest dog that I owned. My husband and I got him he was a tiny pup at 8 weeks old. He helped raise 3 amazing boys. Allowed them to climb all over him, stick their little fingers up his nose, tug on his ears and tail and he never once turned to nip at them. He loved the cold weather here in Northern Illinois, especially when it snowed, we couldn’t get him inside for hours. He was a blessing and so lovable to everyone that crossed his path. When he crossed the rainbow bridge, I was devastated and said I’ll never get another dog because Niki left the biggest paw print and hole in my heart. Everyday after he passed I felt him lying on my feet, they were awfully toasty plus Nikki loved lying on them. I also felt his hot breathe on my arm when I sat on the couch. The boys and my husband said we need a dog in the house, I refused for 3 years until I said yes. Then we found our sweet Kaiser who was a 14 week old German Shepherd/Labrador Retriever. Kaiser slowly meted my heart when we saw him at the shelter. He mended my heart around the paw print that Niki left. Kaiser was taken from us too early and too young. In March of 2021, he was diagnosed with lymphoma. We were told that he could be with us for 2 weeks to 2 months. My second oldest son said to me that we should get another dog to be there when Kaiser passes for our emotional support. We pitched it to my husband and he agreed. So while we were taking care of Kaiser and keeping him as comfortable as possible with the cancer we started looking for another dog. Within the month, we adopted a 1.5 year old Great Pyrenees, named Gimli. When we brought him home he and Kaiser bonded well and became best friends. Gimli would lay beside Kaiser until he fell asleep every night. About 16 weeks after Kaiser’s diagnosis he passed away at home in my arms under his favorite tree in the front yard. He was surrounded by everyone who loved him(family, Gimli, and neighbors). To this day I think of both dogs constantly and shed tears as well. Gimli comes over and comforts me. I as well carry both Niki and Kaiser with me everyday through the memorial I’ve had tattooed on my wrist. It says “Forever in my Heart” with two small paw prints, one blue for Niki (he had those blue eyes) and a black one long side of the blue one for Kaiser.
It sounds like you have been on such an emotional journey with your dogs Jennifer. I have an age gap between my dogs because I couldn’t bear to come home to an empty house. My rescue Dachshund is getting older now, his muzzle is getting more grey by the day. I still miss Holly, she was an angel and my soulmate, but I know we’ll meet again one day. Big hugs to Gimli (I’ve never met a Great Pyrenees, but would love to) and thank you so much for sharing your story x